Sunday, November 27, 2011
Wake-up Call
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What should a 20 year old guy be doing when he is 20?
It's no longer a pinch that I feel but a punch.
Reality is hitting me more right now that I am no longer a teen, but not old enough to be called an adult. Kinda like in limbo..
20's still young, many would say. But once you hit the big 2 in front of your age, time appears to accelerate and there are more and more things to handle in your life.
I feel that there's so much more that I have to be responsible for, many more things that I have to consider as my decisions that I make are more important as they affect more than just myself.
Yet, looking at the way things currently are, I have much to do..
I want to deepen my faith in God and have a closer relationship with Him.
I want to learn how to love others better.
I want to study really really hard and smart for my A'levels.
I want to score straight As for my A'levels.
I want to pursue medicine/nutrition.
I want to be financially well-to-do and attain financial freedom thereafter.
I want to know a girl who loves herself for who she is, who thinks for others, wants God in the center of her life, who loves me for who I am, and is worth dying for.
I want to marry that beautiful girl.
I want to bring so much more meaning to her life and make her the happiest woman.
I want to live in a house that has a warm feel, homey, well-designed, clean and tidy.
I want to have another house in another country that is beside a lake.
I want to have a yacht that my friends and I share.
I want to explore the world with my wife and try out new and random stuff together.
I want to see the Northern lights and gaze at the stars with her.
I want to have kids with my wife.
I want them to be healthy, grow up to be humble, obedient, and God-fearing.
I want to tell my kids bed-time stories so that they have sweet dreams before they sleep.
I want to be able to spend quality time with them, as a family.
I want to teach my kids sports and have awesome family activities together, at the beach, at the park, or just at home.
I want my family, my wife's family, and my siblings' family to be bonded with each other.
I want my family to be close to the families of my best friends and let my children know that they are legendary.
I want to see my children become fine young men and beautiful women who walk in Faith and Wisdom.
I want my kids to see my wonderful parents, talk to them and get to know them better and spend time with them.
I want to be see my grandchildren, and teach them about love, and how to pray.
I want to catch up with my old friends and just chill out like how we used to.
I want to be embracing my wife and taking walks down memory lane when we're old.
I want to know that those I hold so dear to my heart, are taken care of, and are doing well.
I want to be by my wife's side when either of us departs this life.
And I want to see Jesus
when He calls me back.
It's 5am in the morning of 27 November 2011.
I guess this is my Wake-up Call?
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Saturday, November 26, 2011
It's Okay
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That's what Barney Stinson would say. Haha!
Nah, I'm not going to talk about How I Met Your Mother.. But something else. :)
"It's okay" has quite a lot of usages in conversations.
For instance, in Singapore or any other country with the majority as Chinese, people usually use "It's okay" to cover up their shyness. Like in Chinese New Year when people go visiting and are invited to have have a bite at the goodies, most would say "It's okay" mainly because they are what we call "paiseh" (in Hokkien). But it is also a form of politeness too. Although it does contradict a little here when you see people eating "Kway Bang Kit" after saying "It's okay"... Haha. Maybe it's just in the tradition of not being too open to accepting people's offer from the start. This tends to differ in European countries where they are more open and more frank with each other as they mean what they say. Hmmm.. It's hard to understand a more contradicting lot of people uh?
In other occasions when people are asked "How's your day?", the USUAL response would be "It's okay". When DEFINITELY, there's MORE to it! How can a day be just "okay"?? Though if you take it to a mathematical level, perhaps it can because the highs and the lows of the day nullify each other, resulting in the mathematical zero; "It's okay". What a pissing statement! Though there might need to be time and space for someone to elaborate more on stuff so the usual, "It's okay" could very well have been a cover-up as well. Wow. Humans are really difficult to understand with just an "It's okay".
When one's feeling down, and one's friends try to comfort him/her by asking if they're alright, but AGAIN, the reply "It's okay", when in actual fact, they are not okay at all. The friends might say "It's okay, things will get better" when it gets hard to console him/her or when they know the situation's out of their control.
There's so much more to things when people say "It's okay" :/
Yet, as much as people might seem not to understand in times when we are down-trodden, an "It's okay" might very well be all we need to hear.
That is because it is not just an "It's okay", a failed attempt to comfort someone, but it is an
"It's okay (I am here)" that makes that difference.
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Sunday, November 20, 2011
I Give My Heart To You Because
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Falling in love with someone starts from falling in love with God.
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I just can't explain how amazing this Friday's Amp session was when Ryan, Daphine, and I prayed over one another.
God speaks through my friends. :)
And I've finally got the motivation to get started studying thanks to Joel!
"If not now, when?"
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Saturday, November 12, 2011
The Blessing
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How many times have you encountered someone who was mentally unsound? Once? Twice? More than twice? There are those that just blabber words loudly, disregarding everyone around them. Or perhaps, they lack such an awareness to be conscious of their own actions.
But there are those, who target people. And that is when things become a little more, creepy.
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I was on my way back home from my grandmother's 74th birthday celebration and my family and I were waiting for the bus interchange, waiting for the bus to arrive and take us home. Everything went on normally. We boarded the bus, and went up to the second deck. Most of us were seated in the middle seats of the upper deck while my mother and brother went for the front seats. Other people boarded the bus like they would usually do and the bus embarked on its journey.
During the journey back, I was listening to a song with my sister, and complaining a bit to her about why I had to book in so early tomorrow. After a while, I decided to play "Tap tap" on the i-phone with my other sister who sat in front of me. There was nothing peculiar that I had observed as yet until, my sisters who sat in front of me kept turning back and looking behind in my direction. I was puzzled as to why they looked back so I asked them why. And my sister said "Ge, that guy is talking about you. He was talking about a guy in black polo T. And that's YOU..."
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"I didn't know that guy."
"Why on earth was he talking about me?"
"I wasn't talking about him either..."
"Is he alright?"
"Can he just leave me alone?"
"Who is he?"
"Is he possessed?"
"I think he's got a problem."
"This is scary."
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Little did I know that there was more to come.
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The guy was seated just behind my mother and brother. While he continued to babble about me, I was still wondering and asking my sisters about who he was talking to. I was in slight disbelief about what was actually happening at that moment.
I knew he was mentally unsound. He even thought that my sister was my girlfriend. -.-
But the question that resonated so jarringly in my head was:
"Why me?"
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Then came the stop where he was supposed to alight at. And that was when he did something creepier. He walked to my seat (I was sitting on the inside, thankfully), and looked me in the eye.
He said "I tell you, you will understand what is retribution!"
And he walked down the stairs, still staring at me. (no pun intended here but yeah, I saw that from the corner of my eye)
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"WHAT WAS THAT..."
"SO FREAKY!"
"RETRIBUTION???"
"What did I do?"
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The atmosphere in the upper deck fell into fear and bewilderment.
Yes, I admit it. I was scared. My family members and I looked at each other wondering what was going on.
But none of us knew what was going through that guy's mind.
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Maybe he had a bad experience before and he thought that I was someone he knew?
Maybe he was possessed?
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My sister also mentioned that he said things like "Don't think I don't dare to pull you out of your seat."
Strangely, all his comments before my sisters looked back went unheard. I wasn't aware of that guy till then.
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My other sister said that we could alight at this coming stop, as she thought that guy had already alighted the previous stop.
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But she was wrong.
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He alighted the SAME stop as us!
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ARGH!
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Thankfully, he didn't realise that we alighted the same stop as him... Until after walking a distance, he looked back at us!
Guess what happened next?
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HE BEGAN WALKING TOWARD US!
GOODNESS!
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It became so creepy till my younger sister cried as she hugged my mum...
It was SERIOUSLY scary. I tried to laugh it off but his words bugged me and bore me down with fear that I experienced for the very first time in my life.
I was fearful, yet at the same time, angry.
I wanted to beat that guy up into a pulp just to shut him up and leave me alone for good if there were no rules, no law, and no right or wrong in this world.
I had that urge to overcome my fear with anger because I knew that I was so much stronger than him.
Such big words like "Retribution"...
Why will a mentally unsound person target someone?
It was the very first time that I had seen someone in such a state and gotten into such a situation.
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My family and I walked away from him and hastened our steps. After a while, he was no where to be seen.
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As we walked back home, most of us just kept saying that it was so creepy..
I tried to rationalise my fear along the way, and tried to understand why such a thing happened to me.
For a moment, I even thought that I was cursed!
I was overwhelmed.
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I really was scared even though I knew I could take him down with ease.
But what if he caught me unaware?
What if he was armed?
What if he had kerosene with him?
What if he had jealousy in him and wanted to disfigure/torture/injure/kill that someone whom he thought was me?
Looking back at that moment, I was afraid to lose my own life. I was afraid to lose the things that I have.
Perhaps you guys might think that I was thinking too much, but these are possibilities after all.
It is a feeling that cannot be captured in words and I think for anyone, they would feel this way too.
But still, why me?
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As we went back home, my parents called for prayer so we gathered at the table together. Our family prayed for each others' safety, and also for that guy, that he may find peace in our Lord.
My family also prayed for me, that I would have a peace of mind from this freaky incident.
We then had our turns to share our highs and lows of the day.
Then, for some reason, things just started to make sense to me..
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Like what Leonard had said yesterday during Amp about the "Keanu Reeves" moment (a moment of realisation), I experienced one myself.
I began to realise WHY such an incident happened to me in specific.
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I realised that God wanted such a thing to happen to me because of how I would perceive things. And how I perceive things, I would like to humbly say, is a gift from God, and it isn't anything generated from myself.
I believe that God wanted to tell everyone through my experience that the life we live right now is not ours to keep, but ours to give and be of service to others. That whatever we have right at this very moment, may be taken away from us because we do not know what can possibly happen.
In my situation, the guy may one day come up to me and stab me from the back. Or he might disfigure me? Or even cause harm to my loved ones? Who knows?
Our looks, our thoughts, and our entire being belongs to God.
Every day is a gift from Him. Every thing that we have, every one that we love, are gifts. And they are blessings that He so generously gives us in our lives.
But are we ready to lose them all?
Are we attached to things of this world that we find it so hard to let go and offer them up to God?
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Every single thing fell into place then and I felt a peace of mind and heart like never before.
I wasn't fearful anymore.
I knew that I could not live in fear, because I only fear the Lord.
I was no longer afraid of whatever that guy would do if I ever met him on the streets because everything I had is given to me by the God of the Universe.
Just like what was mentioned in Amp, and in my previous blog post:
"What if you woke up one day, and realised that all you have left is what you had thanked God for yesterday?"
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I believe that there was much more to this seemingly accursed event.
Right now, I can only thank God for allowing such a freaky incident to happen to me, to make me realise that all of us are nothing without Him. It isn't an incident to make us feel unworthy of ourselves, but instead, it is one to make us feel so worthy of His love when we put our Faith in Him.
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I wasn't cursed afterall.
It was a blessing. :)
Gratitude
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"What if one day you woke up, and all that you are left with is what you had thanked God for yesterday?"
Leonard gave an insightful speech once again on the gifts of the Holy Spirit.
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My mum told my younger brother (and us too) recently:
Make life more meaningful for yourself, and for those around you.
http://bmylife.com/
Turn every curse, into a blessing.
BML. :D
Good night!
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Friday, November 11, 2011
Gotta Catch'Em All!
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So many shows to watch... And who to watch with???
I really had a good laugh with my sisters yesterday over this video by Ryan Higa. ENJOY LAUGHING! xD
TEE HEE!
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Monday, November 07, 2011
Lose
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It's okay to lose, as it is alright to win. :)
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Saturday, November 05, 2011
How To Love
So gonna save up for my own acoustic guitar.
Only One
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I don't want to like a girl cos she's the only one. I want to be with a girl, knowing that I have other girls that I can possibly be with, but I CHOSE her over the rest.
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Friday, November 04, 2011
Parallel
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I like drawing parallels. Even the word has it.
I'm complicated.
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Tuesday, November 01, 2011
As a Matter of Fact
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There are only a few things in life that matter. No one is able to make every single person or event in his/her life important. If everything or everyone were important, nothing would be.
We choose what matters to us. Unfortunately, we do not usually make rational decisions when choosing what is important. Until the moment that we are able to understand what we want of our lives, we would just live in delusion.
Every person is like a package. They come with different personalities, different values, and different beliefs. We unconsciously associate with whoever that has whatever we value. That's the reason why people say "friends choose you", not "you choose them". It is only when we shape our own values first, that we will attract the kinds of friends who hold similar values to us.
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Everyone wants to feel important in this world. Everyone wants to feel recognised, appreciated, and loved for who they are. They want to be important in people's lives. They want to matter to someone.
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